Recent Problems

Well what do you know.. its another year and i wasn't that much active here.. a lot happened to me.. sickness and illness, failures, enjoyment, new things acquired, new friends.. all of them came.. and i don't know if i responded well.


It has been quite a while when i started to be like this. I, myself, don't know my own body, what i want, what i need to do and my thinking(brain) is like its going to burst because i don't know much about myself. I cant sleep well thinking of it and it affects my daily life. I don't even know if i should consult a psychiatrist but i think it won't help also.

This sort of thing is like a big hindrance or to make me look a bit competitive, a challenge. The people surrounding me is getting affected because of my stupidity and all. Yeah, stupid, because i can't get things straight and my focus is out of this world. I don't know when this started or how i became like this, but i knew i was like this after i got sick.. and its just dengue.. i don't know if it affects the brain or something, but its a theory of mine that somehow affected me.. it might be because i was always in bed and so slow and sick and groggy.. in short im very weak.. until now i feel like im vulnerable.. i dont know which things should be prioritized, or is my life ending?

Right now im just bursting all the things that come out in my head and i only find peace when im relaxing. reading stuff like manga, news tabloids and all.. playing games.. and with this practice it also affects my studies.. even when im playing i dont know if im doing the right thing there.. i always make mistakes, of course not in reading though because it's fixed and constant and it doesn't change.. although in real life, this reality, making a mistake plays a big part in my life.. well its because its reality.. unlike in games you can load again incase you died or made a mistake or wish to change to another route.. real life is different.. you can't return to the past but only to reminisce what you did. its kinda hard to play in real life though, because basically, every movement, gestures, decisions and all sort of things that requires action has a meaning. if you did not pass a certain requirement you'll fail and when you fail, you fail bigtime! if you lost a game, it will forever be a burden.. if you lost someone, they won't return to life again.. real life really is mysterious.. and here i am blabbing all sort of things..

You see.. my mind is really confused right now.. i can think of different things, i can even make a story in a game or maybe a manga if i can draw well.. Something in me has changed and i want to find out what happened to me what im not aware of.. I even speak in english differently now.. Is my spirit at work or is this just who i am? i don't feel like im the usual self anymore.. It seems that the end of the world for me is the end of me. Will i be all right? Will things go back the way they used to? Will i be able to make things right? considering all the failures, and mistakes i made.. Will i be given a chance to redeem myself? All these questions keep bugging me.. and the last thing that always comes in mind is... Is the end near .... ?


- john paul matias

Happy Halloween!!

I never experienced a Halloween event, but in my own way i celebrate it through watching horror movies, with zombies and the like. Making my day like a "Terrorific" one. Sometimes if im not in the mood to watch movies, i play online games, like today, im playing Legend of Edda which just started its open beta season. I join their celebration of Halloween ingame and i find some fun in there.

Halloween can be celebrated by a lot of ways, it can be through story telling, camping and sharing of stories, watching cds/dvds, playing games or the traditional way of wearing costumes and make yourself look scary and make others frightened to white. Here in the Philippines, people are adapting the ways of Halloween from other people/country, they too are wearing costumes now and put on make-up to make them look frightening. I too would want to put on costume but im alone so i guess there's no point in doing that, but maybe soon if i had some friends at home.

Right now, im braving my self up to watch a horror movie marathon, i just hope i can make it. BEWARE! Those who are easily scared and have heart problems, I strongly not recommend you to do this as this could lead to possible complications and problems. As for the others, Have FUN! and HAPPY HALLOWEEN!! BWAHAHAHAHAHA..





P.S. Oh and remember, at the end of this event, of course it'll be November 1, and its all souls day. Don't forget to pay respects to your dead relatives and pray for them.

GoogleDocs

Documents, Spreadsheets and Presentation have gone online!

What is GoogleDocs?

GoogleDocs is like an online/portable  Microsoft Word Document, Microsoft Powerpoint Presentation, Microsoft Excel Spreadsheet, Form and Drawing. You can upload your files here, share it with others and a lot more. You can also edit files you have and can easily access them without the hassle of inserting USB devices and all, all that requires you to have is a Computer, a browser and internet connection. You can create your documentation or anything else with just a click of your mouse and an account here in google.

Main Features:

Documents:

• Upload and convert Word documents, OpenOffice, RTF, HTML, text (.txt), Open Office (.odt), and StarOffice Writer (.sxw) files (or create documents from scratch).
• Easily format your documents, spell-check them, etc.
• Invite others by email to edit or view your documents.
• Edit documents online with whomever you choose.
• View your documents' revision history and roll back to any version.
• Publish documents online to the world, as webpages or post documents to your blog.
• Download documents to your desktop as Word, OpenOffice, RTF, PDF, HTML or zip.
• Email your documents out as attachments.

Spreadsheets:

• Import and convert .xls, .csv, .txt and .ods formatted data.
• Export .xls, .csv, .txt and .ods formatted data and PDF and HTML files.
• Use formatting and formula editing so you can calculate results and make your data look the way you want it.
• Chat in real time with others who are editing your spreadsheet.
• Embed a spreadsheet, or individual sheets of your spreadsheet, in your blog or website.

 Presentation:

• Share and edit presentations with your friends and coworkers.
• Import and convert existing presentations in .ppt and .pps file types.
• Download your presentations as a PDF, a PPT, or a TXT file.
• Easily edit your presentations.
• Insert images and videos, and format your slides to fit your preferences.
• Allow real-time viewing of presentations, online, from separate remote locations.
• Publish and embed your presentations in a website, allowing access to a wide audience.

Advantages of GoogleDocs:

• It is convenient, a portable way of making your required tasks like making a document or presentation.
• Easy to access
• Does not need any applications to install
• Can be shared through the net and be linked
• Can convert files of different extension
• Can save in different formats
• Can easily edit files
• Can sort out files in your item lists

Disadvantages of GoogleDocs:

• In cases of power outages, if you haven't saved your file, it will not be recovered
• Most likely it will lag, in slow computers
• Requires to have internet to be able to use it
• Less features compared to the Microsoft Office Version
• If you have a big file or bunches of files, uploading it takes time (for slow internet connection or upload rate)

How to Register a PayPal Account

I never had a paypal account before, so this might come in handy for those who are going to register in the PayPal Site.

To Register a Paypal account: (just follow the instructions)

1.) Go to the site : www.paypal.com

2.) Choose your country and language you prefer. If you can not find your country in the list, then you can not register with Paypal. Then Click "Select" to go to the next page.

3.) Choose Type of Account. For ones who want to buy and sell online, please select "Premier" by clicking at the tap "Get Started".

4.) Add your credit card details and click "Continue".

5.) Now you have to go to your email, check your inbox. There will be an email from Paypal. You need to activate your Paypal Account by clicking " Click to Activate Your Account".

6.) From you Paypal Site, Click "Link and Confirm Credit Card". When you click "Save and Continue, your debit card will be charge $1.95. Paypal will refund this amount to your Paypal Account after your card has been confirmed.

7.) Click "Go To My Account".

8.) Add Security questions.

9.) Now wait for few more days till you can check your credit card statement. You will find Paypal Code for four digits.

10.) Log into your Paypal Account again. Add this code to confirm with Paypal and you will get $1.95 refunded from Paypal to your account.

That's about it, you can start buying or selling things you want in the internet. Have Fun Shopping!

Here's a video if you want some visuals: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s8V_QdaeZCA&feature=related

Choosing Blogger as my weblog

I chose Blogger as my weblog because of its easy functionality and less hassle way make posts and its interface is not that confusing. I can say that its simple but at its best or might even be better soon. I can also change its design, add widgets and gadgets, its fast and reliable way of blogging. It just suits for the type of blogger i am and so i chose this as my weblog for convenience.

Coming Back in Blogging

I have not been online lately here in my blog for quite a while now, it must have been that I'm not really used to it yet or seems like i was kinda lazy back then. Well, as of now for a change, I'll try to post a lot of things in my blog about all my experiences, school work/requirements, games i played, places i went to and a lot more. So basically it'll be like a general blog containing a lot of things, it may be bad or good, it doesn't matter as long as it has a sense in it.

Since i got a subject in my studies that teaches about blogging, i learned a lot from it and hard as it can be, putting an effort to this blog might come in handy for me in the near future since i have a feeling that this can help me put up a name for myself, my works and for people to learn about things too.

Starting today, earning is one of my primary concern and i wish this can help me sort things out.

My Entry in Digital Art Competition..ü

Feel free to comment on my Artwork and i hope that you'll vote for it too.. hehehe.. ^^

My Artwork

Thank you very much..ü